I'm just thinking that soon will be valentines day and my wound is not about being single but the struggle I've had to have friends that I have had a lot of fake friends that I probably should have cut off because they talked **** to me to my sister. I think I am too nice and my mum is right that I let the public **** on me but when it's for her I give it back. I've had a lot of betrayal with friendships I am not friends with anyone I went to highschool with my experience I wouldn't wish on anyone. I had to go through a lot of betrayal and torment and just being excluded in general that it has caused me to become reclusive and I just feel more wounded and apprehensive of everyone. I don't truly feel like anyone is a friend and to be honest, I've not wanted to get close to anyone for a very long time. So for valentines day I wish for one thing only and that's that I can heal and just not get so sensitive that I haven't found my people. If I m being honest I don't feel like I have my own people I felt like friendship is hard like why would I think getting a boyfriend is easy. I just don't want to hurt anymore I feel like I attach myself more to people more than they do to me and I'm just sick of being the one that cares more. For once I want someone that cares for me the same intensity that I do I deserve that.