My heart does go out to you. My childhood has been following me in my head for a long time. I can't seem to get rid of it. I honestly wish I could rewrite it. Better yet, I wish I could have been born at 17.

I haven't spoken to my parents for 30 out the last 35 years. I found out my had passed away five years ago from a website, and it didn't even bother me. I ignore Mother's and Father's Day every year.

For many years, I had built a fairly stable adult life and was able to stay in the present. But after two near death experience in 1994, I have fallen apart and it has never been the same since.

Just hang on baby. You do have friends here!