This article is from Australia and you might find the site, itself, to be interesting:
https://au.reachout.com/articles/wha...-a-good-friend
I think it's important to know that friendship and mutual care and respect ought to be just that : "mutual" and "reciprocial".
Put energy into your passions, whether that's gardening, playing a musical instrusment, painting, running, swimming, etc. And practice self-care.
One of the best Valenitine's days I ever have was when I got dressed up, put of makeup, and went to the museum to see some wonderful art. I didn't have much money, and the museum was free, but I did manage to buy myself a red rose. I felt really fulfilled and proud of myself that day.
So, I hope you can give yourself a super dose of self-care...