I think it's like Malcom explaining Chaos theory to Sarah in Jurrasic park. The second water drop will not follow the path of the first because the original conditions have changed.

It's important to recognize that internalizing conflicting messages and experiencing psychological undermining can deeply affect one's sense of self-worth. It's not uncommon for individuals who have experienced such challenges to struggle with self-neglect or difficulty in prioritizing their own well-being.

It's about self-compassion and understanding your journey. Recognizing that your struggles are rooted in past experiences and conditioning can help you approach self-care with greater patience and kindness towards yourself.

Change is hard because it requires energy to maintain. It can be easier, when everything is going swimmingly. Harder so when things crop up.

Start small, grow tall.