@CANDC thank you. It’s not that I’m afraid people will find out, I know I have control over that.
I just feel embarrassed about it because it’s a disorder that can only be caused by trauma and having that label just shines a light on some embarrassing stuff and makes me feel just… pathetic.

I was suspected to have BPD at first and I actually would have preferred that even though I know it is stigmatised.

I do feel somewhat validated but I also can’t accept it and really hate myself