Feeling so triggred, I don't know why, I can't figure it out, It just happend. It just fell out of the sky and landed in my lap.

I was fine I promise, I was absoultly %#@&#! fine feeling really hopeful really good about everything, then I started feeling really anxious, my stomache started to turn and do flip flops like it was traning for the olmpics. My mind started racing and all of a sudden it felt like the world was going to fall apart.

I don't get it I just don't get it....why why why why why??!!!!!!!!!!
I'm a prisoner of my emotions they do whatever the hell they want.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to hurt..I just want to make it all go away. I want to take a knife to my skin or take shots of vodka unitl my stomache burns and my mind is clear from all of this.

Where did this come from..where? I don't understand..I don't get it..where is the answer...what is this all?

I feel so upset, I don't know how to handle my emotions..damnit..why am I this way?