I'm having a hard time making the changes I need to make. I'm still staying alone most of the time. The weather is getting warmer, which gives me more interest in getting out of my apartment. But I lie around too late. I know I need to schedule things to do that get me involved in the world around me. I keep telling myself to do that, but everyday I have some excuse for not leaving the house.

I'm not as depressed as I was, but I will get very depressed again, if I don't make some moves in the right direction. It might help me to have a therapist, but getting one is hard in my healthcare system. The providers at my clinic never take me seriously when I mention depression. People always think I'm just fine. I act like I'm just fine. In many ways I am. I wish others could see past my surface.