Hi, for context I had a psychotic episode when I was 11-10, psychiatrist put in a paper that it was something along the lines of ''depressive episode with psychotic symptoms'' if I remember correctly.

The thing is, I think I'm falling into an episode again, last night my thoughts were going really fast, couldn't read nor comprehend anything, I was erratic, I felt like that again, I was pacing in my room and laughing at nothing, I was way too agitated, I saw a bug crawling in my computer last night and I just couldn't know if it was real or not, I saw a light in the ceiling, that could NOT be there because my room was completely dark and I had nothing that could make that light.

Today, I feel my whole body itching and I keep having the thought that there may be bugs under my skin, this is something I experienced in my first episode, my dad was watching something in his phone, and I had to cover my ears to know if it was noises I hallucinated or not, I keep having these thoughts of ''oh, this is a simulation'', and then I realized, some of my behaviour could STILL be considered psychotic, like ''turning the computer or putting something on top of my phone's camera or screen because they're watching me, someone is hacking my cameras and watching me'', hearing phrases or singular words, like they are in my head, (which don't happen a lot but they are there), and more things but I forgot them,

How did you felt (as in sensations, feelings, behaviour) when you fell back into a psychotic episode?