Thank you everyone for your replies. I don’t think I could ever bring myself to ask T for a photo that I could keep. Another issue I have is asking for things or simply just asking questions and I don’t fully know why.

I’m just dreading talking about this with T again as there is still quite a lot I haven’t told her. I hate that she asks what photos I look at and how I found them, it feels like she asking out of her own curiosity or concern about what people could find about her but I’m probably just projecting. I don’t know. I just think she couldn’t possibly accept me if I told her everything.