Thanks for being so kind!
He doesn't have a T. He did, but that T left, and the replacement has canceled the last four appointments. Not very professional...But he hasn't found a replacement yet. He doesn't have insurance ATM, so he's kinda stuck where he goes right now. I'd let him have some of my T appointments, but it's not like taking your car to the same mechanic. Besides, I need my T appointments enough as it is. :-P

He's not very co-conscious. Jon usually has NO idea what's gone on when Jonathan is "present". Jonathan is a little better, but not much. He does have some awareness of Jon's world, and he's been able to share things with me that Jon needs to know that he can't communicate himself. How are these two going to integrate when they can't even really interact with each other...???

Jonathan called me one night and left me a voicemail asking me to come and help. I called him back and then went over. Jon's only got a couple of months clean and sober, and his body is still kinda sick. He wore himself out (poor guy) and Jonathan stepped in to make him eat and rest, but he was too weak and he needed my help. After a while, Jon came back through and he was really unnerved to find me there. When he found out that Jonathan had left me a message, he wanted me to play it for him.

You're describing what he tells me he feels like when he's speed switching. Skipping through life and missing part of the story. I just wish he would quit bad-mouthing Jonathan. I understand there's been a lot of conflict between them. I just don't like hearing anyone talk badly about the man I love (any of him). But I can't be a T. I can only be a partner.

Jonathan did say something odd yesterday...Something about how he wishes he could see the stars again, how he wishes he were the one who felt loved. I wish there were something I could do for him...
But I know that I can't/won't do anything behind Jon's back. I feel bad enough sometimes for talking to Jonathan as much as I do, like I'm being dishonest or disloyal. I'm always honest about any switching. I just don't know if it's a breach of confidence to tell one what I spoke to the other about. When he asks, I tell him, but i don't always feel comfortable volunteering information.