(((whiteNight)))

you are doing the best you can so far, with this difficult situation.

we know how hard it is for you at this time.

you have the support of everyone here.
you may want to chat sometime also, in the chat room.

being around your grandparents at the gym is a very therapeutic experience for you.
it's good you do this.

wantingtoheal is giving you great advice, and youcan check about supportive services being free in your community. i hope you can take advantage of such a service, whether they offer you a therapist, or group therapy for support, or a visit to a pdoc first for stress evaluation, it can only add to your support system.

i give you so much credit for what you are dealing with - and i can feel your pain.

my parents broke up in my teens, and my mom changed more at that time, and the kids felt the abandonment and neglect, as you do. we got through it, although we all were split up by then. thanks to books, music and heavenly Grandparents, i had a fighting chance, perhaps like you.

i told my family dr. about how high strung i felt when i was a teen going through this stuff, and he prescribed something for me to help with my nervousness to calm me a little and, thankfully, it did not interfere with my responsibilities etc.

just want you to know that things will be alright.

even though it looks awful right now, stormy and cold, and you feel alone, know in your heart that you will move on to better days, and much better experiences. this marriage and their difficulties do not define you or your life.

even though this stuff is happening in your parents marriage, to them, and affecting you, know they love you more than anything else in their life - they just can't handle their own lives right now - and the way they are behaving is not uncommon of people who are in troubled marriages and going through emotional and mental difficulties.

it is not your fault. you are still loved. they are distracted and being neglectful due to how overwhelmed they are in their struggles with each other.

do your Grandparents want you to stay with them for a little while?
have they asked?
can you ask them - if you want to?

anyway, you are holding up real well, and i hope you can get even more support in real time. maybe you can make a Dr. appt. and tell him what has been happening in your home and how it is affecting you. don't worry about the money. he/she can bill your parents or eat the bill.

you have every right to medical care and counsel - despite what is happening with the adults. they are still responsible for you and must allow you to seek and receive medical care.

so you see, you can do this for yourself because it is allowed, and if your parents can't afford it, the state or your county can and will pay it.

sending positivity your way - filled with loving thoughts and peaceful comfort ~

hoping things calm down for you, Dear Person,
nightbird



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