@raspberrytorte thank you so much for your kindness! I will try to. Having an empty home is hard. I miss holding my husband and him holding me, it's getting bad these days. Then I have to remember all the trouble he caused me, and I am better off - but man, the loneliness is so hard.

I do hope you get some rest. Let me ask, have you ever had a sleep study done? I mean you've thrown so many different medications at the sleep problem, but maybe it's something else entirely? I never thought to do one, but I found out I had sleep apnea, where I never thought I never had a problem. My problems were similar to yours, just couldn't get to bed, and when I went to sleep couldn't stay asleep for the life of me. Maybe look into it.