And Will, you once mentioned medical conditions in another thread and this is the kind of thing that keeps me up at night. What if something happens? I have no one to care or notice. How would I know if I’m having cognitive impairment? Diagnose myself?! I used to have an acquaintance who complained to me about her ills. Yet she has two daughters, lives with one and her son-in-law, a sister and a caregiver now. And had the nerve to tell me stuff like I “should” get a pet for company. Glad I don’t see her anymore. Never asked about me, just talked about herself.

I love dogs and cats and they make better companions than humans. No judgment or ghosting.

But I have no backup, no one to step in and care for my pet temporarily or permanently. I have a hard enough taking care of myself and who knows how long I can keep that up? I do all my chores, including taking my car for service or other tasks like that. But I have to pace myself now. I could never clean my whole apartment in 2 hours like you do! The bathroom alone takes that long, as I take breaks and need to let the cleaning solutions sit a few minutes.
And that’s all I could do in one day. Vacuuming, dusting, shopping, laundry, etc. Do it ALL.

It’s so bad I can’t even stand the smiling couples or families on commercials or the news. I fast forward or change the channel if I can. Those Medicare commercials are ubiquitous and always have a couple reviewing documents together, the man with his arm around her. It’s killing me. It sends the message that this is what your “Golden Years” are supposed to look like. Well not my years.

I sometimes wake up spooked, thinking I’m the only person in the building. I have to tell myself that I at least know one lady in the building. The only thing keeping me grounded, if that’s the word, is thinking of the posts I’ve seen on here and elsewhere. There’s many older people alone but we’re all scattered and isolated still. To add insult to injury, I’m getting bombarded with political calls. I know everyone gets them but that’s ALL I get. Just got one.

Really wish I knew you in real life as I’m sure we’d get along, being of the same personality type. Well we can support each other here. And I’m always willing to listen, in the forums or in a pm. You know I get it.

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