Amazing - I appreciate the transparency - welcome here my friend.

I'm in my 30s, male as well. I have no such diagnosis, however the doctors in forensics assigned me a counselor to help me navigate the mental health system and help guide me down a prosocial life style after a manic episode gone wrong.

I have been stable for years since, and really what I find most problematic is my impulsivity, and I'll be honest - it often takes a lot of mental work for me to perspective take.

I do not fully understand nor agree with many of the constructs of society, however I see that they are in place for reasons and do my best to uphold the values I've been raised with without compromising my internal experience.