Hello Insideouttsider,
Glad you're doing ok.
I find the social side of life challenging to say the least. Been quite some years since I entertained having friends. Always feel like a field mouse, camouflaged in an open field full of cats and hawks.
Mostly I've relied on partners for my social. That hasn't worked out well I'm afraid.
I find your take on the constructs of society intriguing as I'm very much in the same boat. I have a lot of ideas as to why. Doesn't mean either of us are wrong, just...different.
Do you suffer from a lack of empathy? I find without it I'm always viewing things exclusively from my perspective. Sounds crazy to me but apparently people think of others in their calculations and viewpoints.
I don't really have any values that don't stem from my viewpoint. I suppose I've embraced what I am.
Better than what I was, which was undiagnosed ASPD. At least now I have added perspective. Helps with introspection.
Happy to share anything that you might, or be a sounding board. Might help to get it from someone that's lived with this for years with such an advanced capacity, as I have.
Only thing I haven't done on the Hare list is get busted for criminal activity, so at least I got that bit right.
I think that stems from my behavioral code. I know I am neither moral, nor ethical. I make decisions based upon power, risk and inclination. Tangling with the law, although it did happen when I was younger, always presented to me as a risk not worth taking.
Wouldn't enjoy spending my time behind bars, so I've tried to dodge that bullet.
Anyway, let me know. Happy to talk.