I understand. I'm anorexic too apparently. My family shoves food at me too and it just makes me miserable and I hate myself for eating. I feel like I don't have any self-control even when all I eat that day is a bearclaw. I feel worthless everytime I put something in my mouth. People make such a big deal about us eating but really, pushing food on us is just making the situation worse. Sometimes, I even get sick if I eat full meals. I just can't hold them.