I just have to let this out

I have a set of blue desk lights that used to be my pride and joy. I liked watching them light up the walls (it was beautiful)

since then things have happened, trauma's got worse, more bad memories have been created, and the one thing I really don't want to see on my wall is those lights

it's just... ugg. I suppose I have to think about taking them down and selling them. I'm not throwing them away, because they are still working