I pissed off a friend and kinda terrified her with an anger outburst and she’s ignoring me. Every time I look at my texts or voicemails I get ridiculously upset and honestly suicidal when I don’t see her name up there. I loved the shyt outta her and now she fking hates me.

I’m thinking about it now and honestly want to off myself. Idk if this post is allowed they’ll probably censor me for some bs reason, but this is helping me not act on it right now.

Idk how to cope with these feelings when they show up. Right now it’s like I’m making an attempt every month and everyone is getting sick of my shyt.