I did "stalk" my T prior to making a call to set up the first appointment. But nothing since then. It's not my style, although occasionally I look up an old friend from high school (more than 40 years later).

One idea I have is that the guilt and shame you feel can lead you and your T into a new direction for therapy. It seems to be a very good sign that you can admit to this behavior and that the T is non-judgemental about it.

Other ideas:

• When you feel the urge to return to talk to the T after the session, would you consider writing your thoughts down instead so that you could read them next time? Perhaps halfway through a session, you and T could pretend it's the end, and then you could go back and discuss further.
  
• If you were the therapist, how would you feel about a patient viewing the social media profiles of your family members? Why?
  
• Pretend your best friend feels guilt and shame about reading her T's relative's accounts and that she can't stop. What would you say to her?

Peace