I just emailed T asking for her input about trusting L, boundaries, session frequency, attachment, etc. And she emailed me back 30mins later. She's not known for long emails, but she did a good length this time.

She thinks I'm feeling resentment. That I should work on understanding and forgiveness. She thinks I should accept what happened and move on. She said I don't have to forget or dismiss my experience and feelings. Just that I need to accept what happened.

She also thinks I can continue to trust L. However, she wants me to try out being less attached. She said it's okay that I have boundaries and am keeping L at arm's length. She said I can always take down my walls later. But to practice what it's like to be less attached in a safe therapeutic space. But overall, she wants me to be open and honest with L about everything.