Dear Dr. S, you should have stayed. I needed you to stay. I strongly believe it would have been one of the best things for me. Not easy, as I know you couldn't/can't give me what I want. That is a big part of why I needed you to stay. That experience - how we worked through all of that. How I got to acceptance and all that stuff. You know if you do come back and we meet, I will need you to make a specific promise to me; that I don't think you will make.