Thanks but I have had so many shrinks quit as of late that it's not terribly helpful. As soon as I feel comfortable, that person quits and I have to start all over. I'm tired of generic help and I can't afford to be half as medicated as I am.

A shrink put me on meds to help me not have PTSD night terrors but those meds are also used to lower blood pressure. I have low blood pressure and a super high heart rate due to a Vegas nerve issue, the low BP meds make me pass out from low BP so I had to quit them. Every medication comes with a list of reasons I don't want to take them. But if I'm not medicated then I'm a basket case.

I really appreciate that you can relate @InkyBooky. Sometimes I feel totally insane and it's nice to know someone else gets it.