Had to experiences this evening which were quite amazing.

1) During cardio, I blasted pop songs. Yesterday I downloaded the Spotify app to use for free in order to explore pop music. Just chose a bunch of singers who I new were out there and a couple more whose faces looked interesting. I listened in the car and was underwhelmed. The only song I liked in terms of lyrics was "Sober" by Demi Lovato. I have never had alcohol issues, but I have read about them on MSF. It was literally an MSF song for me! The lyrics are below this post. And she sings so sweetly and with such a clear enunciation. So that I liked but not the rest. But this evening I listened to Spotify when doing cardio (green zone or zone 3), getting my heart rate up, and I must say, music really helped me. I did not care for the lyrics anymore at that heart rate, I just think I was helped by the rhythm and pace of music being in sync with the rhythm and pace of the workout. So I intend to do more of that. For low intensity, I will continue listening to audiobooks (say, yesterday I started listening to a biography of Agatha Christie... fascinating stuff), but for higher intensity, yes to pop music.

2) I hoped that restorative yoga would quiet me down as I had been getting revved up today and feared that it would escalate into hypomania unless stopped by Lybalvi (Zyprexa+). Restorative yoga indeed calmed me down completely and I do not plan to take Lybalvi now. I will just take a little Seroquel as per usual. I think what was so wonderfully relaxing about the yoga session today was that the poses were inverted, with legs above the heart level. I should probably try them at home for relaxation as I now have yoga props.

Anyway:

- ski ergometer 15 minutes, mostly green zone (zone 3). WHAT FUN!

AVG HR 113
PEAK HR 129

2000 meters

- rowing machine 8 minutes, mostly blue zone (zone 2).
AVG HR105
PEAK HR 125

1200 meters

- restorative yoga 75 minutes

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Had only two meals today because I was revved up and not hungry. Had a large berry smoothie with low fat plain kefir and whey protein at 4:40 PM and a salad with chicken and avocado and corn from Chipotle at 10 PM. But earlier in the day, I drank 3 lattes with Fairlife milk which provided 39 g of protein. It just wasn't solid. food.

Lyrics
I got no excuses for all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over, 'cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry to my future love for the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get