My mom died. It’s been about 10 months. She had a lung transplant. Every complication imaginable. The team was never there for us. But she died after a year and half. It could e been avoided. I can’t just explain the entirety of it . But it’s been incredibly difficult for me. AND MY DAD . I pretend like it’s fine . Oh no. I dknt want to burden people. Again, it’s been about 8 months and I’ve lost myself so much. I dknt trust anyone. Even after it happened, coworkers were like “oh no so sorry” okay…. Let’s talk about me now . I’m just so exhausted at pretending . I miss her so much . I loved her more than anything . Sorry . I know everyone’s mom dies eventually . I should be fine . Especially after 8 months . Especially after her king transplant which was a complete disaster . I’m sorry . I really suck sometimes . I’m obviously drinking. I’m sorry