Another hard session and again crying the whole time. I shouldn't be surprised. I think this will be a trend for a while.

We covered a lot of ground. So much so that I don't actually remember most of it. I know we talked about shame and embarrassment for my feelings and attachment. I know I said I felt no shame for my push/protective parts. I told her how I felt it was her responsibility to make sure I had a good therapist, and that because it didn't work out, she could have reached out to a colleague and ask them to help me find another therapist. We talked about physical boundaries I have, and how emotional boundaries are harder. Hmm. That's really all I remember. But I know there was more.

I've agreed to try to add Tuesday sessions. For now, it will be on the phone. I just have so much shame that it's hard to make eye contact, so video would be extremely difficult. I feel like I'm giving into her by agreeing to Tuesdays. I don't want to fall back into the dependency and extreme attachment. But her reasonings made sense, so I agreed.