I’m stupid lol. Walked 7 miles through the park and down the road hoping to catch a bus back to the library. It’s fking Sunday and there are no buses. 🙃

I told two of my friends about my BPD dx and n either of them were surprised. I’m a little offended haha. I feel like a ridiculously bad person. Stupid. Worthless. Evil. Unstable.

Pdoc appt Thursday. I seriously need to ask her how to tell the difference between Bpd mood swings and bipolar mood swings. I know bipolar lasts longer, but my T says BPD moods can last for a couple days too.

I feel like I’ve been extra impulsive lately but maybe I’m just more aware of fking up.