Happy today. Took ket last night and went to sleep with a 5mg diazepam and zopiclone, had a very very deep sleep.

I see the doctor in 1 hour, to get the echocardiogram results. This is a moment.. where I will accept the information given, but for the first time in 6 years (With heart OCD),

And having my heart on my mind, every second of every day, never stopping,

I will know...

I want to say at first, "Please tell me it's ok.. =["