I know it's so hard getting treatment and not knowing what we don't know. And let's face it, it is difficult to advocate for ourselves, espeically when we're not feeling well. Then it happens that feeling poorly (or less than optimal) becomes normal.
But let's not blame ourselves.
Let's practice self-compassion... we deserve it!!
It's good you'll have the conversation about your meds with your psychiatrist. An antipsychotic may or may not be what you need, but it's worth having the conversation.
My Dx is severe major depression with psychotic features.
I hope you feel better soon...
Take good care...
Hugs, if wanted.