Thanks East.

Silences are hard for me. I'm not used to them with L or in life. L has never left me alone in silence because I asked her not to. She's not pushy or anything. She just fills the silence. For example, she'll say that she's there and it's okay to need a break. Things like that.

I feel like if I was silent on the phone, she'll think I hung up on her. Video would at least give her evidence I'm still there, but I don't want to visually see her right now.