I haven’t called him as I have real issues with phone anxiety. He only has a cell as he’s in private practice, and I think turning up at his office would make me look like a stalker.

I just don’t know how to get over the feelings of yet another person not wanting me. That I’m too much and too needy, which he always told me I wasn’t. But clearly I am. And I know this reaction is all stemming from the transference again, I just feel so powerless and helpless.