I've had an unpleasant day, but i like to sleep-in, and this morning i couldn't because my building was testing the fire alarm. I had to get up early to let staff in to test my smoke detector. Luckily it's working fine, so it went smoothly. But i feel sickish from the early morning.

I'm getting discouraged about my depression which doesn't show any signs of easing even tho Spring is here. Temperatures are above freezing and the snow is all gone but i'm still just moving from my bed to my sofa. That's my day.

I even gave up on grocery shopping today (even ordering groceries online there are insurmountable obstacles) and decided just to live out of the convenience store in the building, like my neighbor who gets dialysis and is in a walker does. Yet another activity of daily living i can no longer do.

Maybe it's too early in the Spring. Or maybe this is just how it's gonna be from now on. It's lousy. It's been a bad day tho, so i won't panic. I felt better yesterday. My ZOOM support group was intolerable so i quit. Just unacceptably bad.