I stayed in all week and avoided my music social scene. I am feeling better now that I haven't had much contact with people, which tells me a lot about myself. I need solo time to regroup and ground myself.

I am going out tonight to see music, out of state an hour north. I hope and pray that nothing bad happens. I need a smooth sailing night.

Maybe the key is for me to just keep conversation on a surface level with people when I am out. I tend to desire deeper, more real conversations with people, but I now know I need to keep my distance and protect myself far better than I have been lately.