This is Three in cocon with numerous other alters now who are feeling frustrated and utterly bewildered about something. It's an inner world discussion lately. Some of us are wondering how this could be real. That's how unusual it seems to us.

So in every grade from 1st onward every teacher said Paul (us) was often in his own little world, zoned out, dissociated, unresponsive. Our dad took plenty of photos of us dissociated. Here are some photos in our photo album here at mysupportforums:

https://mysupportforums.org/album.php?albumid=5839

If you click on a photo it will show a description of it.

Our system keeps visiting these photos, especially the following photo over and over throughout the day. We may have been in 5th grade. We were completely dissociated, unaware and unresponsive of the camera.

https://mysupportforums.org/album.ph...ictureid=68514

It's called severe trauma. So how in the world could a dad take photo after photo after photo of their child in this completely unresponsive state and not do anything about it? We were always looking down and to the side like we were in shock, a vegetative state. They never took us to a doctor or therapist.

In 5th grade our teacher used to carry us around on his shoulder in front of everyone. Every day he made fun of us, kids laughing at us, pushing/hitting/bullying us during playtime everyday. We and many others have memory of this teacher grabbing us by the throat outside throwing us against the brick wall and lifting us in the air. Sometimes he would push hard on our chest till we nearly blackout. We have clear memory of the world collapsing into a blackness inward to a pinpoint till we nearly faint. All because we were always dissociated in class. He hated that. The 2 girls who lived across the street were in our class. They told our mom and much older sister about it. Our mom & dad did nothing. We were such a shy nice and passive child who wouldn't hurt a fly.

We don't think our parents were bad people. They seem very nice. So we're just very confused. It seems like this is the way the entire world is to us. I know Paul believes the world is fake and we're in some virtual world of something being experimented on. I, alter Three, and many others here do not want to believe that. Sorry, we don't know what to say anymore. The more we look at our photos the more confused and scared we become.