The picture is indeed alluring. That the head is not shown invites imagination. Your fantasy is, well, a fantasy. It appears that you enjoy being ordered, humiliated a little bit, and punished. There are a lot of people like you. I do not know why but there are. You just need to find kindred spirit so that you would not feel so alone.

Care to tell us how those people who called you a freak sneakily got hold of this fantasy material of yours?