I hate myself. L and I have been emailing all weekend. The last time she wrote was 9 hours ago. I responded 30mins after. I have waited all day for a response. I'm so pathetic. Why would I think she would continue the conversation? That she would respond in a timely manner? She has a full life. I have none. I don't think I can do this anymore. All of this: emailing, therapy, life. And I can't be in an intimate off-balanced relationship. It's not fair to be so vulnerable and the other person risks nothing.