I'm looking into Yoga at a fitness center for seniors over age 50. I just learned about these senior fitness centers that the city operates. I am badly in need of getting more exercise.

I order high quality vitamin, mineral and other supplements on line. Blood work showed me that I needed to reduce some of the B vitamins I was taking.

I do know what is causing my mental state. It's due to social isolation. I know what I need to do about it. I simply have failed to do what I know I should do. Today I failed to even get dressed. I failed to get out of bed at a reasonable hour. I'm failing to make good meals. (Just eating frozen TV dinners and Boost.) I'm failing to brush my teeth twice a day. I'm failing to tidy up in the kitchen and leaving dishes unwashed for days. I haven't vacuumed my place since January.

My sisters don't call me anymore. Not even on Christmas Day, or on my birthday in January. I would rather have died than face this rejection. I don't deserve this. I've lost everyone important to me. I have to rebuild a life from scratch for myself. It's too hard. I'm not strong enough. I've been pulling myself up repeatedly, just to keep falling back down. It has gotten too demoralizing.