Hi there,

I just noticed something in your first post about trials and tribulations with therapy, meds, and professionals. You mentioned you figured you always had to "tough it out" through depression, and yet now that approach doesn't work. I was just going to add in my decades of trying the same, the only benefit I ever got from therapy was when I would get more vulnerable with the practitioner, not less. Keeping a tough exterior only buries our pain and suffering further, and that stuff is what you need the therapist to help you process with. Although, doing it on meds that only make one feel better means maybe you won't feel it when the changes do occur. You also mentioned in another post that you keep attending meetings and leaving with nothing. Maybe you are leaving with minute fractions of positive change, but you won't see it immediately, it won't hit you like a pill, because changes in therapy take a long long time. I do understand your sense of desperation and frustration. That seems to be the unfortunate byproduct of going through any system of healthcare. However, keep at it, and please don't give up on yourself, because you deserve genuine happiness or at least minimal depression in this life.

Luv,

Marilyn