Isolated and heartbroken. This is day two of no-contact. This is so hard. I had a friend today tell me that I'm heartbroken and it's okay to grieve, so that's exactly what I did today. Don't know if I'll sleep on time because I couldn't get out of bed this morning. I am so sorry if I sound like a broken record with this, but it is really hard. I invested so much of myself into this person, and it failed so miserably, and I feel so bad. I miss him, and I am angry at myself that I do. I can't even pray, because I feel that even God can't help me with this.

So, I will take my meds in about an hour and try to get to bed at midnight. Hopefully I sleep.

Thank you so much for this thread being here, it's nice to see you guys so positive doing really good things. When I get out of this, I really hope to join you.