So this private psychiatrist who I was told was willing to fill out these forms for me turned out not to be willing to do so. I don't know why it's so hard to find a medical practitioner who will fill out two pages of forms for me. Everything just seems so pointlessly difficult and it's frustrating and it makes me just break down into tears for no ****ing reason. I need help and I can't get it because no one will just do some basic ****ing paperwork for me to get the time off work to go and get help. I feel like I'm going to die here and no one wants to help me. I still have my nursing practitioner to ask, and I have an appointment with her on Tuesday. If she can't help me then I'm just totally left to die of this disease that's killing me. I'm crying right now because I feel so lost and helpless from this whole situation.

I apologize for swearing...