I'm so sorry you lost her CANDC, and I hope that you know that your grief is totally normal, however you experience it. I hang on to the past all the time. I'm still not over those I've lost, and life somehow keeps moving forward even though sometimes I feel I don't. Hugs and love. You work wonders on this site, and I know I am grateful you are in this world, even if there are parts of you that feel maybe missing or lost.. Take care, and self care this next week. Keep checking in.

Luv,

Marilyn