Just remember in your own recovery that doing what is best for you IS SUCCESS. Making wise choices for your own life.
Also you are greiving a relationship you wished was different than it really was. When you focus on REALITY, you never had the marriage your own mind was tricking you into believing while you yourself were dealing with your own addictions. We NEVER see our life clearly through addiction & now you are in recovery, don't go back & see your past through those addicted eyes of the past. Definitely a work in progress just like recovery but now you are on the right path. Keep up the good work & give yourself praise for the success of getting to where you are NOW