Strength my friend. You have more than you think and feel free to borrow some of mine. I am often in short supply, but I find that often when I loan some out it comes back multiplied when it is to someone who cares, and I know without a doubt you care.

Sweet angle dream well
Let not fear and pain rule the day
Of some things we cannot chose
These will come without out say

But end the end we have the strength
And we can call on friends in need
Together we can share or wills
To climb each hurdle in the path we lead

You do not face these things alone
Though often it seems to be that way
Reach out your hand and trust friends
Hold the demons that attack at bay

We can not be there with you in flesh
But in your mind and heart we share
Feel joy and share in your triumphs
And will do as we can to relieve your care.

Sometimes these are only words, but they are true words from the heart. I and others here care, just as you so willingly care for us. Do not forget that it is mutual. Keep us in your mind and heart. Draw what strength you can from us, and do not hesitate to ask for more when you need it. We have talked. You know I have plenty of my own cares and demons. We all, those of us here, do have those things. Often, the only way I can get through another day is to lean on others, and I find that when we all lean together, we get much stronger.

Peace my child, I wish only peace on your mind. This will not come easy, and there will be setbacks, many. I will give you no lies about that. Unfortunately, there are no magic pills or wands to wave. There will be pain, and setbacks, but you will win. Fight the fight and defeat them.

I was required, years ago, to form a personal statement. I am supposed to look in the mirror each morning and state it, looking myself in the eyes and trying to mean it. I don't always remember, don't always have the strength to try. There has been more than one day that it was the only thing that got me through that day, gave me the will. I suggest that you try to do the same. I will share mine, though I will use the name Goose rather than my own in a public forum. It has changed over the years as I have needed it to:

I am Goose.
I matter.
It does not matter what others think, I know I am a good man.
I have something to do today, I may not know what, but I will find it, and do it.
Today is not the day I will let the bastards beat me.