I found out today what L meant when she wrote that it wasn't my job to keep myself safe the entire leave. She meant both: 1. To take the leave one day at a time, therefore keep myself safe one day at a time AND 2. That I wasn't alone in keeping myself safe, that I had others to help me.

I hurt over both answers. One feels like I'm to blame, that it was my responsibility no matter what. The other feels like she's to blame for letting me down by suggesting G and for not stepping up when G didn't work out. The only thing is that I did keep myself safe the entire leave. Whether it was meant to be or not, I did it. And I did do it one day at a time. Still, I was alone. Everyone left me to do it on my own.