i dont know why im feeling down suddenly. i love being married. i love my husband. we had an amazing wedding. a fun short honeymoon. and we have a great new apartment in the city in a good area. but deep down i feel sad and im not sure why. its not something ive really told people as i dont want the whole guilt trip about my blessings i have. i know how lucky i am. ive waited 37 years for marriage.

i see my t next week. i hope to hear from my new school soon too. im praying i get in!