I screwed up big time yesterday. Caffeine is one of my triggers. It makes my mind spin and that re-traumatizes me.

Yesterday, I had some chocolate ice cream and before I knew it, the caffeine in it tore me apart. I felt so uncomfortable, I had to go to sleep when I got home. When I woke up, my mind and body were real tense. When I woke up this morning, nothing changed.

I really hate this disorder.