I'm glad things are settling down. Trying harder to avoid triggering. Little Paul takes over sometimes. He's so much happier. If not then I'm robot or zombie dissociated Paul. I don't know who I am now. A tangled mess of a sea of parts. People in past called me chameleon. My 2nd main T was surprised in my Big 5 Personality test that showed all 5 of my personalities change hourly. Youngest trauma must be surfacing this year. Did is getting bad each year. I wonder what its like to have one mind. Its 8:45am and only cried 3 times, i dont feel good, will be okay so dont worry