cont. I feel so much better, yes its very strange. It helps to type something. I'm sooo dissociated now the world is spinning lol but I can still type. FYI IMO I must have been switching above because that overwhelming feeling of being pulled so strong inward like a black hole like you have to fall asleep and it makes doing stuff feel so cringy or whatever the word is, like I want to hide under a rock and feel 100% exposed and uncomfortable even typing a message to people. I kinda feel that way now again but still dissociated and spinning dizzy. Better stop now before getting triggered. And dont want to overdue my welcome. I like being very very dissociated spinning dizzy so long as there is no pain-- dissociation is amazing to me