I feel intense shame in the eyes of God. I am in recovery too, and I feel unworthy enough even to pray. I feel my sins are so bad and I have done so much wrong I don't even deserve His Grace and all the blessings He has bestowed upon me.
Also, to be clear, this has nothing to do with religion just my feelings toward my own Higher Power. it comes from my childhood too.
Great post by the way, this applies to some of the stuff I am learning in CODA.