I identify with this so much. I was already overweight but then turned around and put on 50 MORE pounds in a matter of three months after my thyroid surgery. I have let this weight make me feel so disgusting, that I literally hate everything about myself, and say the worst things to myself as well. This is not the way - being happy in my own skin has been so far removed for so long, I can't even define myself as well.
Kudos to you for addressing your health, as for the fake pictures, it's kinda hard not to be tempted to do that. I don't knock you for it. A full body shot of me would be terrible right now, ugh.