Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate your advice.
My problem is I'm also extremely anxious during IRL interactions. A couple of years ago, I didn't have the constant anxiety of thinking people disliked me but it's gotten increasingly worse recently. I have always been uncomfortable while communicating verbally though, ever since I was a child. I have been entirely closed off from people outside of social media apart from my mom and brother. I don't know how to explain to someone that doesn't experience it but it's like my mind goes blank when I try to speak and I get very scared of messing up. None of my responses feel ''normal'' so this is why I avoid meeting people in person which definitely doesn't help with me feeling lonely. I've never been to a therapist or psychiatrist. I haven't been able to keep a job due to my mental health so I couldn't pay by myself but I'm hoping to convince my mother to help so I can at least get somewhere.